You get on with life everyday and everytime shit happens to you.Time and again...one by one it comes...and yet you're still standing. Yup, I"m standing but I Feel so tired. Feels like I Wanna have a rest. I jsut want things to stop happening. I just want some attention...To be loved, to be cared for, to be pampered. I guess I just feel too dry in giving. I suddenly realised why I am so listless and dry. When I stop to think, it 's just because I've' been giving. not receiving. Entertaining the requests one by one as it comes. trying to be the best doctor, the best boy friend, the best son, the best colleague. Pleasing everyone along the way, trying to do the right things each moment.....it just doens't sustain. Is it because I'm inherently a bad person trying to be good? Is it because I"m getting older and having this I"m too sick of life feeling, or is it because I"m not connected to the source??
I want to break free...I wanna be left alone, I wanna stuff everything and everyone and just pack my bags and experience something fresh. Something that gives me meaning in life once again..... I guess this's what most of us feel when we arrive at this point. Of coz it's not easy to just go along with our feelings, pack our bags and go to wherever the road leads us. You know wut I did?.................................
I got connected to my source. I felt renewed, rejuvenated, refreshed once again. yes,,,...this is what I"ll do everyday before I start my work. This is the only way I can be sustained everyday. I found meaning finally. The meaning is why we existed in the place, we existed to have a relationship with God. When our relationship with God is good, naturally, our relationship with people is fluent and meaningful. God is my meaning and I found Him!
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